My Little Boy

My sweeeeeet little boy, Paxey poo!  You are such a happy baby, both Dad and I look forward to seeing you smile every.single. day.  We knew from day 1 of being born that you had a special fighting spirit about you, and your bright smile just confirms it.  I even look forward to your 3 a.m. feedings because after you're done eating I love to have those quite moments with you where I can just watch you beam!

You love when your Daddy comes home and first thing he wants to see is your smile…he'll talk to you and you'll turn your head away from him and pretend to be bashful, but then after a couple of minutes you'll give him the cutest sideway grin.  He likes to hold you when he's sitting in the recliner, and you two will sometimes have the longest conversations which consist of you just cooing and making tender little baby noises.

I'm thankful for that bond I've been able to build with you where even though you can't speak it, I can feel of your love.  Lately you get so proud of yourself when you stand up with me holding your hands. I tell you, "Paxey, you are such a BIG BOY!" and you just look at me with a smile so big that drool comes out of your mouth.  You haven't started to roll over just yet, and are not a big fan of tummy time at all, but are so sturdy on your legs.

You are just such a joy to have in our family, we have been blessed to be able to watch you learn and grow.  What also just melts my heart is whenever Annabelle is around you, or when she is talking to you it's like you know she is your big sister and you always smile directly at her.  Reminds me of the special relationship you must have had with her in heaven.  She's always the first one to give you a toy or to check on you.  One night when I was in the living room feeding you she got out of her bed and came out to me and said:

A: "Mom, is Paxton ok?" 

Me: "Yes, he's ok."

A: "Ohhhhh ok, good night!"

When you have your grouchy moments it's usually because you are just so hungry you can't wait another second to eat!  You are easily cheered up though, and will smile at whomever is holding you.  As a mom it's one of my greatest delights to watch your whole face light up from the happiness you feel from within, it validates to me that you feel safe in the environment we are raising you in and that you too can feel of our love.  When you get really excited you move your legs quickly back and forth or just squeeze your little fists.  We think you are on the verge of laughing…Daddy has got you to giggle just a little bit here and there so we know it's coming!

When you smile your eyes light up too, it's such a pure and innocent emotion that it radiates glee to anyone around.  I can already tell that your spirit will be able to lift others up, I hope you always treasure the happiness that so easily evolves from you.

Paxton 5 Months

5 Month Update: 

1.  Your new trick that you are doing right now is sticking out your tongue at us!

2.  You are such a chunk, we never can see your neck bc your chubby cheeks! Mom and Dad have to make sure to always wash under your neck during your bath time bc it can get stinky under there.

3. You are a hard egg to crack sometimes when Dad and I try to make you laugh, you'll raise your right eyebrow and look at us thinking, "I'm not going to give my smiles away that easily!"

4. Uncle Johnny and Aunt Amber came to visit us!  It was Johnny's first time seeing you and we had such a good time with them here! We went to Oatman and walked around a bit with all the dirty donkey's. They brought you some army pj's that were so cute, I can't wait until you can fit into them!

5. You like to sit with Mommy in the camp chair on the back porch while Annabelle plays outside in the rocks!

6.  You are playing more with your little hands and trying to figure out all the things that they can do.

7.  It's so nice when we visit Mesa bc your Aunty Kiki loves to hold and play with you all day long, she is so good about calming you down.

8.  Mommy likes to put you in polo shirts, but I can only button up the very bottom button bc you are so chubby, and usually with your footy pj's I don't snap the very top snap either.

9.  You are eyelashes are starting to get so long and that makes Mommy oh so happy!

10.  We took you to your first splash pad at the Mall in Phx with Aunt Nicki Lees and Tara, you didn't have much of an expression when we put you on one of the water jets!  It was nice to get out and get some water on us though bc it was so hot!

11.  Mommy likes to lay you on the couch and have conversations with you, you'll talk back to me and make these little cooing noises and act so concerned with what I'm saying, it's so adorable!

12. You still are an amazing sleeper and will nap at least 2x a day for a good 3 hours.